I just thought it rhymes - no idea what the last three words meant. Haha!
The recent drama in my life involves me, my Panget and our helper - Manang Letty.
Last night, I let go of her.
I got fed up with her when while reprimanding and reminder her of her shortcomings - she tells me 'Wag nyo akong punahin! Wala pa akong isang taon sa inyo! Nag-aadjust pa ako!' She was 40 days old with me yesterday.
Why should I effing wait for a year before I reprimand her of the things she's apparently forgotten to do! My gosh this was when I realized that she was going nowhere and I didn't want to go through this drama anymore!
You see, she's 45 and she works a little bit slower than usual. You'll need to give her instructions twice and have her repeat it so that you'll know she understood the instructions. And when she forgets something - she REFUSES to admit that she forgot it! You'll go on a lengthy conversation and in the end, she will admit that she indeed forgot to do it. It takes her a while (4 to 5 days) to finish the laundry and to think, its just me and my Panget's clothes! She blames the unpredictable rain for the stinky towels that I noticed twice before - i NEVER said or commented on her slowness with the laundry, ever. YET she tells me its a major major problem for her and she's so stressed about it. Silly, right?
So last night, when I asked her to pack her stuff and leave - she suddenly became really nice. Her facial expression that was angry, was gone - her expression was now the exact opposite. She then asked me with a begging tone 'Ma'am, baka pwede bukas nalang ng umaga ako umalis, ayoko kasing bumiyahe pag gabi' My heart said to give in to her request, but my mind said the exact opposite. I have been very accommodating to her with all of her requests, YET she answered me back with anger when I reprimanded her. I knew that if I gave in, it would make me look bad - I had to be tough, and tough I was - so, I told her - NO.
I couldn't believe that despite my being nice to her - buying her requested chocolate drink (she said it HAD to be Milo with Calcium), peanut butter, brown sugar (white sugar is not good for her health), the bagoong she liked, allowing her to go on her worship days Thursday and Sunday mornings (she's Iglesia Ni Cristo) when she initially asked to just go EVERY Sunday. I think I knew that something was wrong when I gave her more than her salary - she was the one who promised me that she will give me back the change of P400.00 - I trusted her, knowing that was a member of INC, I thought she was trustworthy - the next day, she only gave me P200.00 with a sheepish smile on her face telling me to deduct the missing P200.00 on her next salary because she had to send money. She did not look one bit guilty, it seemed like I owed her. I got pissed, I mean - it was her who said that she will give the change when she got back, but she didn't - and when she did, it was missing half! Is that an honest person? I think not! This made me realize that I should give her what is only due to her and not any more than that. She cannot be trusted.
I thought she was different but she wasn't.