As my due date gets near - I am getting more afraid.
Why? Because honestly, I fear pain, I fear the sight of blood, the sight of needles, the hulabaloo of it all, and most especially the fear of the unknown.
I am getting emotional these days - thoughts and wonders of worries are always there. I am clueless on the things that will be happening to me. Friends say to enjoy the ride, but how am I supposed to enjoy the ride when I am clueless? You see, I am the type of person who wants to somehow know whats going to happen, at least to have an idea on what will transpire - so I can prepare myself, somehow. Weird as it is, but that's me. Hahahaha!!
My body is getting heavier - I can feel it in my knees. My walk is different, my sleep is different, everything is different! Hahaha...
My excitement is overshadowed by fear - I am still not prepared!
Some friends say that I have nine (9) months to prepare, but I just have two (2) months left and STILL I am half-baked.